And over 30K ...
This is great. I've finally found a pace of writing that suits me--half an hour over lunch time, then 2-2.5 hours in the evening. At the rate I'm going, I'm managing to get an average of about 2,500 words a day.
However, there's a big problem with this. I am way behind on my goal for rewriting Darkness in the Forest; according to my WIP log spreadsheet, I'm supposed to have finished the first revision by New Year's Eve. And ... guess what. I haven't started it yet. I've got too carried away with Cold Witness and research for Radiant Shield to be bothered with rewriting. That's the really maddening thing; I loved the story for DITF, but now I've grown beyond it as a writer. And yet, in some ways, I'm back in the bad old days. The LOAF trilogy was a nightmare to me; my horrific experiences with the dreaded Permanent Revision Syndrome have left deeper and further-reaching scars than I had hitherto realised. Now, when faced with revising a manuscript that needs a lot of work doing to it, I get the same old fears rising from the dark crevices of my mind once more. That's the basis of it: I'm frightened. And I don't know how to fix this problem.
*sighs* I'm going to have to get over this. I am determined not to give up. My plan for 2002-2005 was based solely on me trying to get DITF published first; I knew I probably wouldn't succeed, but it was the necessary first step. The Twilight Trilogy would come next, then Cold Witness. As things stand, everything will be turned on its head if DITF flops, and the plain truth of the matter is that, at the end of the day, I have changed shockingly little since August 2002. That evil month was the time when I wrote out an extra 50,000 words of utter drivel just because I thought having an extra POV character was the "correct thing to do". Urgghh. My writing may have improved, but I'm still just as terrified of the cold, impassive manuscript watching me from the half open drawer, whispering to me; 'You're frightened, aren't you? I can sense your fear.'
Okay, now I'm getting weird (and somewhat supernatural), so I'll stop.
This is great. I've finally found a pace of writing that suits me--half an hour over lunch time, then 2-2.5 hours in the evening. At the rate I'm going, I'm managing to get an average of about 2,500 words a day.
However, there's a big problem with this. I am way behind on my goal for rewriting Darkness in the Forest; according to my WIP log spreadsheet, I'm supposed to have finished the first revision by New Year's Eve. And ... guess what. I haven't started it yet. I've got too carried away with Cold Witness and research for Radiant Shield to be bothered with rewriting. That's the really maddening thing; I loved the story for DITF, but now I've grown beyond it as a writer. And yet, in some ways, I'm back in the bad old days. The LOAF trilogy was a nightmare to me; my horrific experiences with the dreaded Permanent Revision Syndrome have left deeper and further-reaching scars than I had hitherto realised. Now, when faced with revising a manuscript that needs a lot of work doing to it, I get the same old fears rising from the dark crevices of my mind once more. That's the basis of it: I'm frightened. And I don't know how to fix this problem.
*sighs* I'm going to have to get over this. I am determined not to give up. My plan for 2002-2005 was based solely on me trying to get DITF published first; I knew I probably wouldn't succeed, but it was the necessary first step. The Twilight Trilogy would come next, then Cold Witness. As things stand, everything will be turned on its head if DITF flops, and the plain truth of the matter is that, at the end of the day, I have changed shockingly little since August 2002. That evil month was the time when I wrote out an extra 50,000 words of utter drivel just because I thought having an extra POV character was the "correct thing to do". Urgghh. My writing may have improved, but I'm still just as terrified of the cold, impassive manuscript watching me from the half open drawer, whispering to me; 'You're frightened, aren't you? I can sense your fear.'
Okay, now I'm getting weird (and somewhat supernatural), so I'll stop.
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